how bout getting off these antibiotics how bout stopping eating when I'm full up how bout them transparent dangling carrots how bout that ever elusive kudo
thank you india thank you terror thank you disillusionment thank you frailty thank you consequence thank you thank you silence
how bout me not blaming you for everything how bout me enjoying the moment for once how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you how bout grieving it all one at a time
thank you india thank you terror thank you disillusionment thank you frailty thank you consequence thank you thank you silence
the moment I let go of it was the moment I got more than I could handle the moment I jumped off of it was the moment I touched down
how bout no longer being masochistic how bout remembering your divinity how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out how bout not equating death with stopping
thank you india thank you providence thank you disillusionment thank you nothingness thank you clarity thank you thank you silence
are you still mad I kicked you out of bed? are you still mad I gave you ultimatums? are you still mad I compared you to all my forty year old male friends? are you still mad I shared our problems with everybody?
are you still mad I had an emotional affair? are you still mad I tried to mold you into who I wanted you to be? are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions? of course you are of course you are
are you still mad that I flirted wildly? are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you? are you still mad that I had one foot out of the door? are you still mad that we slept together even after we had ended it? of course you are of course you are
are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time? are you still mad that I seemed to focus only on your potential? are you still mad that I threw in the towel? are you still mad that I gave up long before you did? of course you are of course you are
I was afraid you'd hit me if i'd spoken up I was afraid of your physical strength I was afraid you'd hit below the belt I was afraid of your sucker punch I was afraid of you reducing me I was afraid of your alocohol breath I was afraid of your complete disregard for me I was afraid of your temper I was afraid of handles being flown off of I was afraid of holes being punched into walls I was afraid of your testosterone
I have as much rage as you have I have as much pain as you do I've lived as much hell as you have and i've kept mine bubbling under for you
you were my best friend you were my lover you were my mentor you were my brother you were my partner you were my teacher you were my very own sympathetic character
I was afraid of verbal daggers I was afraid of the calm before the storm I was afraid for my own bones I was afraid of your seduction I was afraid of your coersion I was afraid of your rejection I was afraid of your intimidation I was afraid of your punishment I was afraid of your icy silences I was afraid of your volume I was afraid of your manipulation I was afraid of your explosions
I have as much rage as you have I have as much pain as you do I've lived as much hell as you have and i've kept mine bubbling under for you
[chorus] you were my keeper you were my anchor you were my family you were my saviour and therein lay the issue and therein lay the problem
that I would be good even if I did nothing that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down that I would be good if I got and stayed sick that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth that I would be great if I was no longer queen that I would be grand if I was not all knowing
that I would be loved even when I numb myself that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed that I would be loved even when I was fuming that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity that I would be good whether with or without you
you hadn't seen your father in such a long time he died in the arms of his lover how dare he your mother never left the house she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
you reminded her so much of your father so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive and why you can't trust anyone but us but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour
how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?
just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye I remember how they would creak loudly she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide sometimes indignant sometimes raw can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes it feels like highway robbery and sometimes it's peanuts I wish it could last a couple more hours
so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally) you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life
Recent Artwork II Oil Painting on Canvas
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Recent artwork, oil painting on canvas, 122cm x 60cm, 2018. This new
artwork is for the next showcase that will take place in KL soon if
everything is ok.
Journey Through The Skies
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Journey is an experience
Boarding the plane with excitement
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Appreciating the ambience
Making oneself comfortable…
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*The Rock Feat Ahmad Dhani - Kamu-Kamulah Surgaku*
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