If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much
Ooh this could be messy But you don't seem to mind Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later And no one knows except the both of us And I have honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this
You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me You're a kind of my protégé and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it
Ooh this could get messy But you don't seem to mind Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later And no one knows except the both of us I've more than honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this
What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept? What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget? What with this distance it seems so obvious?
Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse I wish I could tell the world cause you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body
Ooh this could be messy and Ooh I don't seem to mind Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime
What's it been over a decade? It still smarts like it was four minutes ago We only influenced each other totally We only bruised each other even more so
What are you my blood? You touch me like you are my blood What are you my dad? You affect me like you are my dad
How long can a girl be shackled to you How long before my dignity is reclaimed How long can a girl stay haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Where've you been? I heard you moved to my city My brother saw you somewhere downtown I'd be paralyzed if I ran into you My tongue would seize up if we were to meet again
What are you my god? You touch me like you are my god What are you my twin? You affect me like you are my twin
How long can a girl be tortured by you? How long before my dignity is reclaimed And how long can a girl be haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
So here I am one room away from where I know you're standing A well-intentioned man told me you just walked in This man knows not of how this information has affected me But he knows the colour of the car I just drove away in
What are you my kin? You touch me like you are my kin What are you my air? You affect me like you are my air
Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly One small sideways look and I feel so ungood Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unloved for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
When will you stop leaving baby? When will I stop deserting baby? When will I start staying with myself?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me I jump my ship as I take it personally Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly The moment I decide not to abandon me
You'll rescue me right? In the exact same way they never did.. I'll be happy right? When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me right? Then my life can finally begin I'll be worthy right? Only when you realize the gem I am?
But this won't work now the way it once did And I won't keep it up even though I would love to Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
But this won't work as well as the way it once did Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
I've spent so long firmly looking outside me I've spent so much time living in survival mode
This won't work now the way it once did Cuz I want to deside between servival and bliss Now I know who I'm not I don't I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victom
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with childhood best friends
my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots at that particular time love had challenged me to stay at that particular moment I knew not run away again that particular month I was ready to investigate with you at that particular time
we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding at that particular time love encouraged me to wait at that particular moment it helped me to be patient that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt and in the meantime I lost myself in the meantime I lost myself I'm sorry I lost myself¡-.i am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction you felt you needed to fly solo and high to definewhat you wanted at that particular time love encouraged me to leave at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left at that particular time
Gallops of Champions - Oil Painting on Canvas
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Title: Gallops Of Champions
Medium: Oil Painting on Canvas
Size: 152 cm x 152 cm
Year: 2025
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