Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly One small sideways look and I feel so ungood Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unloved for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
When will you stop leaving baby? When will I stop deserting baby? When will I start staying with myself?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me I jump my ship as I take it personally Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly The moment I decide not to abandon me
You'll rescue me right? In the exact same way they never did.. I'll be happy right? When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me right? Then my life can finally begin I'll be worthy right? Only when you realize the gem I am?
But this won't work now the way it once did And I won't keep it up even though I would love to Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
But this won't work as well as the way it once did Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
I've spent so long firmly looking outside me I've spent so much time living in survival mode
This won't work now the way it once did Cuz I want to deside between servival and bliss Now I know who I'm not I don't I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victom
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down When I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with childhood best friends
my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots at that particular time love had challenged me to stay at that particular moment I knew not run away again that particular month I was ready to investigate with you at that particular time
we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding at that particular time love encouraged me to wait at that particular moment it helped me to be patient that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt and in the meantime I lost myself in the meantime I lost myself I'm sorry I lost myself¡-.i am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction you felt you needed to fly solo and high to definewhat you wanted at that particular time love encouraged me to leave at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left at that particular time
I am a man as a man I've been told Bacon is brought to the house in this mold Born of your bellies I yearn for the cord Years I have groveled repentance ignored
And I have been blamed And I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended
I am man who has grown from a son Been crucified by enraged women I am son who was raised by such men I'm often reminded of the fools I'm among
And I have been shamed And I have relented I'm working my way toward our union mended And I have been shamed And I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended
we don't fare well with endless reprimands we don't do well with a life served as a sentence this won't work well if you're hell bent on your offence I am a man who understands your reticence
I am a man who still does what he can to dispel our archaic reputation I am a man who has heard all he can cuz I don't fare well with endless punishment
Cuz I have been blamed and I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended And we have been blamed and we have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended
I'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it I will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it You can speak of anger and doubts your fears and freak outs and I'll hold it You can share your so-called shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it (and there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege And you owe me nothing in return
You can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I'll grant it You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you'll have it You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I'll support it You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I'll understand it (and there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege And you owe me nothing in return
I bet you're wondering when the next payback shoe will eventually drop I bet you're wondering when my conditional police will force you to cough up I bet wonder how far you have now danced you way back into debt This is the only kind of love as I understand it that there really is
You can express your deepest of truths even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it You can fall into the abyss on your way to your bliss I'll empathize with You can say that you have to skip town to chase your passion I'll hear it You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it (and there are no strings attached)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege And you owe me nothing in return
Recent Artwork II Oil Painting on Canvas
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Recent artwork, oil painting on canvas, 122cm x 60cm, 2018. This new
artwork is for the next showcase that will take place in KL soon if
everything is ok.
Journey Through The Skies
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Journey is an experience
Boarding the plane with excitement
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Appreciating the ambience
Making oneself comfortable…
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DAni @ The Rock - Kamu-Kamulah Surgaku
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*The Rock Feat Ahmad Dhani - Kamu-Kamulah Surgaku*
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